For the first time in our lives together, we have made love in a greedy, selfish way I'd never imagined possible with Jozef, as though we have been starved and are fighting over food. Or maybe not selfish, but self-centred, when we have always been so aware of the other, of the other's pleasure, even at the cost of our own. Now I find what we do both exciting and repellent and these are somehow the same feeling; there is no contrast between them, as there should be. But what I feel, when we have finished and turn our backs to each other to sleep, consumed, is loneliness. I feel I have never known him and will never understand him; that my love for him has been built on gratitude, because he was there when I needed him, and looked after me. And I wonder, with a resentment that borders on despair, why he has never told me the truth about his life.Lambert writes of the pain of existential longing with a knowing heart and a sure, forceful pen. He knows, as one character says to another in Little Monsters, that 'people are not simple,' and that's why I loved this beautiful novel. I feel I've discovered a deep well in Lambert. Sometimes his work evokes Hermann Hesse for me, although he is less of an innocent. How can it be so plain to an outside eye how we live out of the circumstances that formed us, while we are such a deep mystery to ourselves, he asks?
Tuesday, July 13, 2010
A knowing heart and a forceful pen... (Books - Little Monsters by Charles Lambert)
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4 comments:
All that you've written about Lambert in your last few posts tells me I will love his work. Thanks - I'll order them right away.
Hi Verb - I think you will especially like this one.
I have never heard of Charles Lambert. Your last couple sentences have convinced me to read the book.
Matt - Lambert will definitely be an interesting author for you. I think you would enjoy both of his books, in fact.
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